Society was cruel.
It had standards and expectations that no one could reach.
Either you were too fair or dark.
Either you were too skinny or fat.
Either you were too polite or rude.
Either you were too lazy or a workaholic.
And these were just a few from the long long list of what society thought and believed.
As for me, I was a 20-something guy with lanky limbs that looked like they would just fall off any moment, an unruly and unmanageable mop of dark hair making me look like there was a permanent pot of bushes on my head, my large ears that could have belonged to a giant and my somewhat-stooped posture, paired with my stature giving everyone the idea that I was unhealthy. Like, about-to-faint unhealthy.
In short, I was a tall and lanky fellow, without much muscles to show. Always have been.
There had been instances in my childhood where some of the elderly people of the housing complex we resided in, at that time, had asked me on more than one occasion whether I was not being fed properly by my parents.
And my mother, being a mother obviously, had taken the comment to her heart and tried to over feed me, in hopes of getting me chubby. The memories of which were enough to send a chill down my spine, even now.
“Ishaan! Let’s go, dude!” My roommate, Hardik, who was also my colleague, hollered from the living room.
“Coming!” I shouted back.
Once again focusing on my reflection in the mirror that stared back with wide eyes, I let out a deep sigh. I might not get another chance to sigh this freely once I went out this door tonight.
Refusing to acknowledge the slight heartbroken look on my own face, I looked at my attire for the evening once again. It’s just a pitch black shirt and equally black denims with a simple slate gray Nehru jacket to give the attire a traditional look. Hardik finalised the outfit from the limited options my wardrobe had to offer.
Truth be told, I did not want to go.
Watching my crush of almost 4 years getting married to some stranger was not something I ever planned to do.
But did I have any choice? No. Apparently not attending your colleague’s wedding reception party was considered… rude?
“Ishaaaaaaaaan!!!” Hardik called once again. More like whined.
Of course, he was impatient. After all, he was going there to stuff his deeper-than-Mariana Trench stomach and get his fill of ogling at ‘pretty creations of nature’.
Letting out another sigh, I finally turned away from the mirror and took my wallet and phone before leaving the room.
*****
Like any other Indian wedding, there was music, food, people and a whole lot of noise.
We soon found some of our other colleagues who had managed to make it. Some of them had the same moto as Hardik, while some had more of a friendly relation with the bride.
I trailed behind the group when it was our turn to congratulate the newly weds and wish them a happy married life. And I stayed behind when we were made to face the camera for a happy click.
It was not like I had ever expected my feelings to be reciprocated. No. I was quite practical about everything in life in general and had a fair idea how these things worked.
People would insist about how looks didn’t matter and all, but the truth was looks dominated every other aspect of a person. No questions asked. At least, in comparison to personality. If a person’s bank balance was added to the equation, then that would win the priority hands down.
In my case, I had neither looks nor what one would refer to as a huge bank balance.
So, yes. My expectations were never very high. But it didn’t hurt any less.
Nursing that significantly insignificant hurt heart of mine, I found myself following the rest of the group from my office, in their eating spree. The venue was divided into two portions, one indoor, where the bride and groom were seated and a lot more chairs were arranged for guests, and another outdoor, an open and large space where long tables lined the periphery of the area with food displayed on them while the middle space was littered with smaller, circular tables and chairs arranged together.
Hardik, I and the rest of our colleagues went around the area and scanned the dishes on offer. Every now and then, someone from our small group would suggest some dish that we ‘must try’ and the rest would end up adding it to our plates.
Well, it was free food, heart broken or not. No harm done.
We were settled on one of the tables, devouring the delicious food when a particularly spicy dish hit my taste buds hard. I almost choked, grabbing the attention of the rest of the occupants of the table.
“Dude, drink some water or something.” Hardik supplied, with a mouthful of chicken. The rest nodded somewhat sympathetically, their focus from plates wavering only for those few seconds before getting back to eating.
Trying to suppress a coughing fit, courtesy of my irritated throat, which was thanks to the spicy dish, I left the table and made my way to the makeshift drinks counter.
I swiftly grabbed one of the numerous bottles of water that were placed on one side of the counter and was busy chugging down the contents when a particularly soothing smell invaded my senses.
Lavender.
Separating the bottle from my lips, I turned my head towards the aroma to see a figure standing right beside me, a few inches shorter than me. The very first thing to grab my attention were the ear piercings. There were a total of… 4? No, 5 piercings. Starting from the usual place on the earlobe, the piercings gradually went upwards. The 1st from the bottom had a small golden ring, the 2nd and 4th had smaller rings with tiny stones embedded that twinkled in the lights, but it looked like the rings were interconnected with a tiny chain, the 3rd had a star shaped stud and the 5th one had another ring with a long chain of golden beads hanging from it.
Following the beads down the chain, my eyes landed on a long slender neck, exposed by the short hair. Like those androgynous haircuts. With undercut, maybe?
As if sensing my stare, the figure turned to look at me and large dark pools met mine. Were those contact lenses?
The first thing I noticed on her face was not her oval face, not her button nose, not her round cheeks and not her shapely eyebrows. No. The first thing I noticed was a small stone stud sitting securely on one side of her nose. A nose piercing, then. That was followed by her dark painted lips - that were definitely not red - moving, and I was broken out of whatever trance I was in when I heard her words.
“Lover boy!” She said, quite cheerfully.
“Huh?” I was confused.
Chuckling to what I assumed must be my confused face, she added. “Saw you in there when you were greeting the new couple with your colleagues. Looked quite heart-broken to be honest. One of the many admirers of Radhika, I presume.” There was a teasing tone to her voice. “Or is it the groom you were crushing on? No judgments.” She added, raising her hands as if in surrender.
That was when my gaze flickered to her hands and followed up her arms. Well, one arm actually, as the dark blue top she was wearing covered only one arm and left the other bare. Which was covered in tattoos starting from the top most of the arm and ending at the wrist. A sleeve?
Being effectively distracted, it took me a few seconds before her words finally sank in. I immediately felt my cheeks becoming warmer as embarrassment washed over me. First, being caught gawking at someone. Then, that said someone correctly guessing your well-kept secret. To top it all off, suggesting something ridiculously more embarrassing.
“Th-that’s not-” I started to say, to somehow explain that she was wrong. But I was interrupted when a man made an appearance behind the counter.
She immediately turned towards the said man and a slight movement at the periphery of my vision caught my attention. The man had just placed two bottles of water on the counter, one similar to the ones already placed on the side of the counter.
“See? Told you.” She said as if proving a point, as she grabbed the bottles.
The next moment, she turned to me. “Don’t forget the desserts.” She chimed. And turned to walk away.
After she had taken a couple of steps away, I was finally able to see her full attire.
A dark blue crop top, with only one full-sleeve paired with a multi-coloured skirt. The attire itself was quite simple, to be honest. What brought an edge to it was the hairstyle, tattoos and ear pierc-
Hold on!
My eyes narrowed momentarily as they caught onto something on one side of her exposed waist. Within a moment they widened when I realised it was beautifully carved black ink peaking from beneath the top. The fact that the ink seemed to continue not only upwards beneath the top but also downwards disappearing beneath her skirt, made me gulp. How big was the design?
I didn’t get to ponder much on it as I was effectively brought back to my surroundings by the man behind the drinks counter.
“Sir? Do you need anything?” He asked patiently. Though I was quite sure he was internally judging me for even looking at the… girl? woman? lady? What should I refer to her as?
She was young enough to be a girl. But maybe she was an adult after all. Then wo-
“Sir?” My thoughts were once again interrupted by the man.
“Nothing, thank you.” I finally addressed him, grabbed two bottles of water and walked away to the table my colleagues were still seated at.
“I thought you went to drink water, not manufacture it. What took you so long?” Hardik quipped as I sat back in front of my abandoned plate.
“Nothing.” I said, focusing back on the food. It was very much likely that the encounter today was going to be the only one.
Just then one of our colleagues stood up from the chair they were occupying. “Let’s get some desserts.”
The words made me think back to the words the woman had spoken before walking away.
I groaned internally when the realisation hit me that she must have seen us fill our plates to the brim.
Did I come here only to embarrass myself repeatedly? That too to the same person?
I let out a sigh. No use in pondering over that now, was it?